ItsSarahLou

I wish to be water. I long to be one with the waves. To slip into its stillness, dive into its silky depths and dissolve. Absorbed into it’s body, flowing and swirling beneath the still surface. Drawn along by the steady current. I want to part of the ebb and flow of a great harmonious pool. Lead by its movement. Dictated by its tides. An endless fluid dance in time with the sea. The notes heard in the lapping of the shores and the spray of the waves. I long to join the music. To be the rhythm and to match the tempo. I wish to be water.

They say funerals are for the living. I’m inclined to agree. There’s nothing here but the selfish wishes of those still alive, I see. They say funerals are for the living. Why do I not care. Here I am unreasonably angry at this entire affair. They say funerals are for the living. But, if this is true. I want no part in this facade that claims to be in memory of you.

Tear my flesh from the sinew Burn it from my bones Scald me down to marrow Ignore all my moans. Take all of this gore you made Bury it down deep Don’t let them find what remains Our secret to keep. Leave here to decompose Until I am dust Forget that I existed Die too if you must.